BE A FIGHTER THEN A LOVER,.
Title: enough is enough,♥
its offically one month since i started work. wilhelmsen ship management. cannot believe that its already one month. then only sad thing about this job is that, when you finish your work damm fast. you really got nothing to do. i mean NOTHING. Damm sian. its like how many times you can go on FB. FB also becoming very sian. just 2 hours to lunch time!. must try to only eat 4 or max 5 bucks. so i got enough money to buy contacts. so long never use contacts. lol.
since i really got nothing to do. i shall blog about everything. hmm. maybe not everything , but stuff that if talk about will ease the pain. smth shit like that. wait wait, before i get all serious, let me just blog about smth informalish. Yesterday i saw Katy Perry - ET music video. the visually amazing. she's so pretty. like a DOLL. i wouldn't be surprise if they start calling barbie dolls, katy perry dolls. then the song is so nice!!. i'm addictied to the song. 2nd thing is i just heard 2pm's latest song, Take off. the jap version. OMG so upbeat. nice nice. that song can really hear chansung vocals, which is so amazing. can't wait for their comeback. they are all grown up. Naughty boys to men. WOots.
okay since that's done.Onto to serious things. Sorry blog, but i can just pretend to scold you instead of using that person's name. Can? Can?. alright.*sigh* where do i even begin, does jacinta nishanthi look like a doormat???. why is that you only need me when its only for formal thing. and even that, i always must be the one calling/msging you. always making the first move. its really not fair. you say were friends? but do you act like one. maybe you do around others, but sure as hell not around me. why am i always doing this for you?. of course you will say that you didn't ask me too. yea. its my fault. its my fault for caring right?. yea i admit its my fault for liking you. Sorry for that. maybe you distanting yourself from me, so that you don't lead me on?. but didn't i tell you that our friendship is more impt than that. and you still don't get it?. maybe you also got this type of problems with other girls. but i'm not like them. when i tell you that i like you, you should just give a direct answer. YES or NO. end of story. but you keep saying we too close. yea, so close means wad?. you just leave me hanging there. just tell it directly. and please, if you are thinking that, if you're going to tell me, NO. i might cry my eyes or do smth drastic. then you don't know me at all. beside this whole liking thing, as my friend?, were you ever there?. why is that we have never gone out as friends. and for that you're always coming out with smth." oh i got smth on, see how?" then ask "ouh we make and outing". why do you have to make an outing just to go out with me? are you that ashamed of me?. really?. i'm not a toy. when got no other girls around, then you come and "play" with me. then when got other girls. you just forget i exist. i really deserve a roundhouse to my face for playing along. like so stupid. i really dunno what's you reason for all this. but i had enough. i'm tired of being your doormat, caring . tired of everything. i may have a rough exterior, but i'm still human. and the worst feeling i feel, is that when you care so much for a friend, they just don't give a shit about you. if you think that i'm overreacting and wanna stop being my friend. then so be it. but i can't and won't have someone in my life, treating me like this.
TOLD BY JACINTA
